Thursday, April 15, 2010

you're as dead as disco hunny .


pessimistic mitch is no longer with us . soooo please change your bookmarks . i told myself i wasnt going to to change it untill i felt i was ready & content with my life & i finally feel that i am . im loving EVERYTHING thats going on right now . & i know what you're thinking . " she must have found a boy that she really likes " & thats not even the case . im just . . . happy . & i dont need a boy to do that to me :]
a couple of days ago i got some news & i was in fucking shock . & it made me really think . if it can happen to someone close to you then it can def. happen to you . & i know that person might think i dont care . or im not being supportive enough . & thats not true . i just dont know how to deal . & i feel like anything i say would be negative & not help at all . so i just dont say anything . i wish i wasnt like that . hoepfully i can work up the courage & be there for my friend .

*alsooo check out the new playlist . these are the songs that have been on reapeat for the past couple of days . my friend put me on to this band called Florance & the Machine & they are soooo sick . i love them . i listen to " Howl " at least 50 times a day .
& dont even get me started on Erykah Badu's  " Window Seat " .

song of the day :

Airplanes by B.o.B feat. Haley Williams .

" can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars . "


- Rihanna at the dodgers game showing her new BF some support & she looks sooo fucking cute in that dodgers hoodie .

- momma monster Lady Gaga looking . uhm . as she always does . i love the cotten candy hair .
dont know where she's going or coming from . & judging by her ourfit she might just be going to the grocery store .
- Russell Brand & Katy Perry smooching in NYC . they're sooo fucking cute together . i cant wait till they get married & have kids . they would be the coolest fucking parents ever .

-Amber Rose taking a stroll . her style is sooo fucking dope dude . i love it . if you were to see her walking down the street you would just know it was her . no second guessing or anything & she makes Dr. Martins look soo sexy .


-Zoe Saldana on the cover of Nylon this month . let me just say she is nothing like how i thought she was . she swears like sailor so you know she's on my teaaam . she talked about how she grew up & went to a performing arts school . & i loath people who go to a PAS because i wish i was one of those talented ass kids . go get this months issue & read her article . you'll love it im telling you .


-Trey Songz outtakes for VIBE magazine .
i'll just let these pictures speak for itself . . .


-Rihanna & her band along with Travis Barker on the set of " Rockstar l0l " . which i found a bit odd because the song is featuring Slash , not Travis . but whooo knows . we all know RiRi is full of surprises . i cant wait for this video to drop . its def. one of my favorite songs on the album .



-Heidi Montag . ive wanted to talk about this for a while now . & i must say i feel soooo sorry for her . she was sooo beautiful . ive always thought she was . but why ? why would she go as far as this . this is the perfect example of when you let your insecurities get the best of you . she doesnt even look like a real person & her face looks ten years older than what she actually is . i just hope Spencer didnt pressure her to do this . but i mean . . . you gotta do what makes you happy . & if she is truely happy then i support her . but i dont think she is happy . & she'll never be happy if she continues to keep fucking up her face & body . i wish i could just tell her what my mom always tells me :
" you must find beauty in yourself so others can see your beauty as well . "
i want you guys to ask yourself these questions & really think about them :
  • how much will you commit yourself to your flaws ?
  • what are your flaws ?
  • & are they really flaws ?


-its sweeping the nation . its the definition of cool . & its one of the sexiest things you'll see a boy ever do .

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-i wish i could tell you where this was . but i just found it , its sooo fucking cool .

-Selena Gomez is a skater too . so girls dont be shy to hop up on the board .

-me & friend Durrell .

- my friend Maurice :]


-so i watched Glee for the first time last night & i love it . me & my mom were singning to all the songs . not to mention its funny as shit . tune into Glee right after American Idol on Tuesdays at 9 : 30 on ABC .


Drake - Over
-its a good song . the only part i really like is " i know way too many people here right now that i didnt know last year . who the fuck are yall " .  i think a lot of people ca really relate to that . as for the video its okay . nothing special . but then again its not really a special kind of song so i wasnt expecting anything too major . i will say that all of his songs are kind of starting to sound the same . they're really good . but thats it . its just a good song . there's nothing special about it .

Nicki Minaj feat. Sean Garrent - Massive Attack
-WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?! omfg . she pissed me off with this one . i cant even sing along because i dont know what the fuck she is saying . in this video i saw : lady gaga , beyonce , gwen stefani , & eve . & when i say eve i mean eve from adam & eve when her ass was in the fucking jungle . the best part was the Amber Rose cameo . she's so quick to call everyone a hater , just because people dont like what you do doesn't mean that they're a hater . & how do you call yourself a BARBIE when you wear green wigs & body suits ? she's so animated . she's a fucking cartoon . no better yet . she's a clown . she's a physcotic fucking clown .


don't be shy .
 fashions got a lazy eye .


my name is alice , but i live in no wonderland .

you are a wonderful creation .

sometimes love isn't enough .

there is no escaping the inevitable .


before every moment . is a moment .

conscience is the voice that yells so loudly the morning after .

other people . will always let you down .

you're as dead as disco hunny .

if you ever think you're unable to feel . uncover your heart .

i dragged you out of hell . i can drag you back in .

i hop in my spaceship & leave earth motherfucker .

choke on my dick & my soul .

i question myself again . what is it about men ?

we all turn into the things we pretend to be .



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Friday, April 9, 2010

this time it's going to be different .

i dont even know where to begin .
things have been up , down , & all around .
 yet im sooo happy . i find my self smiling more & more everyday .
& i now this sounds corney as fuck , but i feel so intune with my soul .
ive been reading , writing , researching , & exploring new everything .
but dont get shit twisted . im still me . & i still like my shit BLACK .
but . . . i think its time i switched the style up . again . lol

& i know ive said i'd open up more about my personal life & havent really .
sooo this time around shit is about to get personal . reaaal fucking personal .

sooo lets get caught up shall we ?


song of the day :

Leave by VV Brown

i feel like if i was to make a up beat song . i would have done exactly this . she's a new artist on the rise . pleaseee check out more of her music .

" now you're alone in the dark with a bruised broken heart . "


soooo lately ive been working . alot . in fact too much . i feel like im always there .
but once im there i dont think about anything else but the money . i just feel like i can i freee my mind there .
its funny because i used to just sit at home & not do shit . & now im constantly running back & forth . i love it though . & not to mention the fucking weather . like where the fuckkkk did spring go ? but i cant complain . going outside just puts a smile on my face . go take a walk or read a book or a magzine outside . im telling you'll love it . other than work , ive been doing the usual . the three S's :

shopping , swearing , & smoking .

haha ! & thats what i'll be doing all summer long . i also going back to school next month . im only taking fitness & wellnes because i want to spend most of my summer working & taking trips with me friends . this summer is going to be sooo epic . every summer has a story & im not looking for a fairytale . im looking for a new york times best seller .

* but thats enough about me . TRUST ME , ill tell you guys a lot more within these up coming post .


Katy Perry & Rihanna on the red carpet at Kids Choice Awards .
-Katy looks amazing , & that big wig she wore was sooo her , i loved it . Rihanna on the other looks like a grandma . likei know its the KCA but we allll know you would never where that anywhere else . & her performance was soo suckish . why the hell would she pick rudeboy of all songs ? i know all the little kids were like " moooommmmyyy . whats a rudeeeboyyy ?!? "

Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas . how motherfucking cutee ! when i found out they were dating i almost died . i love demi & i love joe & them together is HOT SEX . which i know they're having . i meaan wtf . all the do is PDA . they were spotted shopping & spending the day chillin in the park . i think they make a great couple . i hope they last .

Pharrell Williams looking sexyyy , his birthday just recently passed on april 5th . he turned 37 . fucking wow right ?! i know . i had no idea he was soo old . he looks good though . for a old coot . loving his outfit though . those are chanel glasses by the way . he's got style for daysss .

Beyonce & Jay Z in the white house . what they're doing there i have noooo fucking clue . & i wonder what they're talking about . probably some illuminati shit . & why the fuck is Jay Z at the head of the table like he's the president ?! hmmm . i gotta do some research on this , i really want to know what they're doing there . updates sooooon .


look at my lovely momma monsterr . this picture was banned in the U.S by the way .
she's also going on tour , ill have the official tour dates up soon . talk of the town is that ticktets are selling for 178 & up . sheeeeeeessssshhh ! i really want to see her though . who knows .

RiRi on american idol . looking amazing always . & i guess this time she wasn't missing a black guitar .
she is also going to be going on tour . its called " The Last Girl On Earth " & joining her will be Ke$ha & Nicki Minaj . wierd combo but i can dig it . ill have her official tour dates soon as well . & since we're on the subject of RiRi here's what she had to say about "close" friend Matt Kemp :

“He’s my boyfriend. … It’s new and it’s fun and it’s nothing too serious. I don’t want anything nuts that’s gonna take up so much of my energy and time in a bad way.”


you cocked your head to the side & smiled didnt you ?

justtttt checking . . .



Nick Jonas for VMan magazine .
three different SEXY covers .
need i say more ?

selena & him broke up by the way . oh well , shit happens .
i dont really like selena anyway . sooo uhm . moving on ?

Ali Lohan . dont know who's she's posing for . but heyyy , lohan's spazzing out so someones gotta bring the bread home .


how long has it been since you've been inspired ?
here's a double dose . can you handle it ? 


if i cant keep you then i give up .

how can i listen to my mind without breaking my heart ?

bottled up inside are the words i never said & the feelings that were never read .

i dont like what i becoming .

love is the ultimate performance .

do you want to sit here & die ? tell me , cause i will sit here & die with you .

my word is my pride .

you're soo beautiful that it would torment an angel to insanity .

baby i aint addicted . im committed .

your deception & lies will cost you dearly .

he's too in love with himself to be in love with anyone else .

i want to see your sould through the holes in your face .

is there still a world outside my windowsill ?

i dont care if you call me crazy , ive been called worse .

we're a pair . a perfect match . we're just ment to be .

you're too comfortable in your memories .

all my life ive been a fool .

we must do extraordinary things . we have to . it would be absurd not to .

you gave strength when i couldnt give it to myself .

you cant kill a man with soul .

big boys dont cry but they sure do fall .

bitch you a hoe . thats why i dont call you no more .

you left me with no love . & no love to my name .

he's something like a rolling stone .

i swear if they turned the lights down in this place you'd shine like star .

lovely ran through her veins & she always wondered why .

i feel like im on my knees . & you're just laughing at me .




we never trust that feeling we have when something bad is about to happen . & then when it does happen we act sooo surprised . why ? we knew it was coming . & yet we continue to ignore the things that are only there to help us . so the next time he tells you , " baby , this time it's going to be different . " listen to that feeling . & if that feeling tells you he's going to leave your heart in a puddle on the floor . take two steps back . so you can get a good look at the mother fucker . & let your soul do the talking . it might be hard . but its the right thing to do . sometimes the hardest thing & the right thing are equally the same .


kept this short because im working on sooo many different things . ive got to get myself caught up .
& thanks for reading guys ! i love all of you :]