this time it's going to be different .

i dont even know where to begin .

things have been up , down , & all around .

 yet im sooo happy . i find my self smiling more & more everyday .

& i now this sounds corney as fuck , but i feel so intune with my soul .

ive been reading , writing , researching , & exploring new everything .

but dont get shit twisted . im still me . & i still like my shit BLACK .

but . . . i think its time i switched the style up . again . lol

& i know ive said i'd open up more about my personal life & havent really .

sooo this time around shit is about to get personal . reaaal fucking personal .

sooo lets get caught up shall we ?

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song of the day :

Leave by VV Brown

i feel like if i was to make a up beat song . i would have done exactly this . she's a new artist on the rise . pleaseee check out more of her music .

" now you're alone in the dark with a bruised broken heart . "

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soooo lately ive been working . alot . in fact too much . i feel like im always there .

but once im there i dont think about anything else but the money . i just feel like i can i freee my mind there .

its funny because i used to just sit at home & not do shit . & now im constantly running back & forth . i love it though . & not to mention the fucking weather . like where the fuckkkk did spring go ? but i cant complain . going outside just puts a smile on my face . go take a walk or read a book or a magzine outside . im telling you'll love it . other than work , ive been doing the usual . the three S's :

shopping , swearing , & smoking .

haha ! & thats what i'll be doing all summer long . i also going back to school next month . im only taking fitness & wellnes because i want to spend most of my summer working & taking trips with me friends . this summer is going to be sooo epic . every summer has a story & im not looking for a fairytale . im looking for a new york times best seller .

* but thats enough about me . TRUST ME , ill tell you guys a lot more within these up coming post .

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. SPOTTED .

Katy Perry & Rihanna on the red carpet at Kids Choice Awards .

-Katy looks amazing , & that big wig she wore was sooo her , i loved it . Rihanna on the other looks like a grandma . likei know its the KCA but we allll know you would never where that anywhere else . & her performance was soo suckish . why the hell would she pick rudeboy of all songs ? i know all the little kids were like " moooommmmyyy . whats a rudeeeboyyy ?!? "

Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas . how motherfucking cutee ! when i found out they were dating i almost died . i love demi & i love joe & them together is HOT SEX . which i know they're having . i meaan wtf . all the do is PDA . they were spotted shopping & spending the day chillin in the park . i think they make a great couple . i hope they last .

Pharrell Williams looking sexyyy , his birthday just recently passed on april 5th . he turned 37 . fucking wow right ?! i know . i had no idea he was soo old . he looks good though . for a old coot . loving his outfit though . those are chanel glasses by the way . he's got style for daysss .

Beyonce & Jay Z in the white house . what they're doing there i have noooo fucking clue . & i wonder what they're talking about . probably some illuminati shit . & why the fuck is Jay Z at the head of the table like he's the president ?! hmmm . i gotta do some research on this , i really want to know what they're doing there . updates sooooon .

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. TRAVELING CIRCUS .

look at my lovely momma monsterr . this picture was banned in the U.S by the way .

she's also going on tour , ill have the official tour dates up soon . talk of the town is that ticktets are selling for 178 & up . sheeeeeeessssshhh ! i really want to see her though . who knows .

RiRi on american idol . looking amazing always . & i guess this time she wasn't missing a black guitar .

she is also going to be going on tour . its called " The Last Girl On Earth " & joining her will be Ke$ha & Nicki Minaj . wierd combo but i can dig it . ill have her official tour dates soon as well . & since we're on the subject of RiRi here's what she had to say about "close" friend Matt Kemp :

“He’s my boyfriend. … It’s new and it’s fun and it’s nothing too serious. I don’t want anything nuts that’s gonna take up so much of my energy and time in a bad way.”

o_0
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you cocked your head to the side & smiled didnt you ?

justtttt checking . . .

:]

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Nick Jonas for VMan magazine .

three different SEXY covers .

need i say more ?

selena & him broke up by the way . oh well , shit happens .

i dont really like selena anyway . sooo uhm . moving on ?

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Ali Lohan . dont know who's she's posing for . but heyyy , lohan's spazzing out so someones gotta bring the bread home .

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how long has it been since you've been inspired ?
here's a double dose . can you handle it ? 

. GET INSPIRED .

if i cant keep you then i give up .

how can i listen to my mind without breaking my heart ?

bottled up inside are the words i never said & the feelings that were never read .

i dont like what i becoming .

love is the ultimate performance .

do you want to sit here & die ? tell me , cause i will sit here & die with you .

my word is my pride .

you're soo beautiful that it would torment an angel to insanity .

baby i aint addicted . im committed .

your deception & lies will cost you dearly .

he's too in love with himself to be in love with anyone else .

i want to see your sould through the holes in your face .

is there still a world outside my windowsill ?

i dont care if you call me crazy , ive been called worse .

we're a pair . a perfect match . we're just ment to be .

you're too comfortable in your memories .

all my life ive been a fool .

we must do extraordinary things . we have to . it would be absurd not to .

you gave strength when i couldnt give it to myself .

you cant kill a man with soul .

big boys dont cry but they sure do fall .

bitch you a hoe . thats why i dont call you no more .

you left me with no love . & no love to my name .

he's something like a rolling stone .

i swear if they turned the lights down in this place you'd shine like star .

lovely ran through her veins & she always wondered why .

i feel like im on my knees . & you're just laughing at me .

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. PHOTOGRAPHY .

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we never trust that feeling we have when something bad is about to happen . & then when it does happen we act sooo surprised . why ? we knew it was coming . & yet we continue to ignore the things that are only there to help us . so the next time he tells you , " baby , this time it's going to be different . " listen to that feeling . & if that feeling tells you he's going to leave your heart in a puddle on the floor . take two steps back . so you can get a good look at the mother fucker . & let your soul do the talking . it might be hard . but its the right thing to do . sometimes the hardest thing & the right thing are equally the same .

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kept this short because im working on sooo many different things . ive got to get myself caught up .
& thanks for reading guys ! i love all of you :]

from heaven to hell & back again .

in one of my slumps .

i tend to distance myself from the world .

& act like everything pisses me off . or i just dont care .

it happens from time to time .

what can you do to help ?

nothing . nothing helps .

i'll continue to be like this untill something good comes my way .

song of the day : Fuck me Pumps - Amy Winehouse .

* this is classic Amy .

she's soo fucked up in a classy & old fashion way .

love her music & love herrrrrr <3

" dust off your fuck mee pumps "

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. all grown up .

sexy huh ? bett you dont know who that is . . . welp ! thats Tahj Mowry . you knooow . from smart guy ! " yooo brother is smart ! " lmao ! had to do it . but yeaaaah . thats him . allll stylish & shit . did a little bit of research & turns out he's RECORDING . smh . he's got a song with with Boom Boom Satellites and Flo-Rida called " Kick it Out " . havent heard the song nor do i want to . anything with Flo - Rida gives me a headache . i really wish he would go back to acting . but as long as he looks like that i dont give a fuck what he does . &

awee ! what a fucking cutieeeee . Daniel " Diggy " Simmons seen at a fashion show . this kids got syleeee man . like grown men dont even dress this good . he's got sooo much style that he is currently working on his fashion line along with his mentor Pharrel Williams . [ whoaaa ! )  it was oringally titled " Space Age " then changed to " Space Cadet " . but he then later on stated " Chivalrous Culture is my brand releasing Fall 2010 for the people that asked is it mine ". & also on December 2 , exactly at midnight, he released his highly anticipated and first mixtape " The First Flight " . damn . thier whole family is sooo creative . but i think he beat out his sister by a long mile . this is going to be sooo much better than the ugly little girl shoe's his sister came up with .

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. SPOTTED .

Zoe Saldana at the Fashion Week kick off Gala at Cipriani’s in NYC.

Queen Gaga and Cyndi Lauper at amfAR’s Charity Gala in New York City . Cyndi’s wearing vintage McQueen and Gaga’s got pearls & powder glued to her body . i dont think she will ever run out of outfits .

Rihanna at Seoul, South Korea at Coex mall

Dita Von Tease with RuPaul on his new show RuPaul's Drag Race

Sweetheart Lauren Conrad at a party for her new book Sweet Little Lies . cant wait to read it ! if you haven't read her first book L.A Candy i suggest you do it NOW .

Beyonce & Alicia Keys on the set of their new Video Put it in a Love Song .

ehhh . idk . . . i really dont like this song . it sounds more Beyonce than Alicia . & judging by this photo it looks like B is taking Alicia out of her element . but that's Beyonce for you . if she's not getting her way then fuuuuuck it .

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. New Music Videos .

Wale : Pretty Girls .

sorry to say this but uhm . . . your kinda LATE dude .

this video should have beeeeeeen out . they dont even play this on the radio anymore . & sorry to say again . but . this video sucks . i pictured him like walking through a city mabeee . . . trynna get all the girls at the party or something . idk . something other than this . all these average ass girls . i could have been in this video damnit .

Wale : My Sweetie .

to be honest this video is soo much better than pretty girls .

& i thought it was like a latin - salsa beat instead of an african beat . smh !

but now that i've really listened to it , i heaaar the african . lls !

good song . good video . good job wale :]

Rihanna : Rude Boy

god . damn . riri .

this is reaaaallly sexy . & one of her best video's yet .

im happy to see her & Wale do something culture inspired . this shows like the fun side of her . i love the bright colors & the MIA turned sexy outfits . & it def. makes me like the song more . even though i wasnt expecting this to be her next single , its still a good song . i guess she wanted something for people to dance to . i think she should have saved it for like the summer though . but as usual she gets my votee .

David Guetta feat. Kid Cudi : Memories

two new videos from the cudder too !

dont really have anything to say .

i dont really like the song . but then again i stopped it after cudi's part .

lls  =P

Dan Black feat. Kid Cudi : Symphonies Remix

such a cool ass video .

& i JUST downloaded this song .

i love it .

& speaking of kid cudi . . .

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Cudi at the NYC screening of “ How to Make It In America . ”

&

Kid Cudi was selected as one of thirty’s “ Most Stylish New Yorkers ” by Time Out New York .

please hunny . . . save that for tonight !

[ pshh . yeah i wish )

:|

His style: “Simple and classic.”

His inspirations: “I always took [style tips] from my older brother and sister, who wore simple, classic things. But I still layered a lot, and in high school, I was a young young’un, all Phat Farmed–out, wearing Sean John, Ecko, Rocawear and Akademiks. I felt like I needed to buy what was cool, instead of just wearing comfortable shit. Now I feel like my personality is this character, and when you watch a cartoon show, the characters aren’t changing their outfit every 15 seconds. That’s why I wear the same jeans every day.”

Favorite local stores: “BAPE, A.P.C. and American Apparel, though I think I’m gonna pass on [AA’s meggings]. I never want to be with my girl and have trouble figuring out whose leggings are whose. I like What Goes Around Comes Around for old concert tees. Oh man, I got this Sgt. Pepper cartoon Beatles shirt there; it was, like, $300. I didn’t even know how much it cost—I thought it was gonna be, like, $80 at most—till I got to the register and was like, Oh mah gawd! Good Lord. But it’s classic vintage rock, you know? I also love Opening Ceremony—I bought five adult-sized Max costumes from Where the Wild Things Are there. I’m trying to do a denim collaboration with A.P.C., but I haven’t reached that yet. Hopefully they’ll read this and they’re down. Hint, hint, wink, wink, chop, chop.”

Biggest splurge: “I never look at the price; I just look for comfort. Of course, the more it costs, the more comfortable it gets.”

Favorite designers: “I love what [Tomoaki] ‘Nigo’ [Nagao] does with BAPE (bape.com), and what KAWS is doing for Original Fake (original-fake.com). I hated suits until I wore a Calvin Klein; they just fit me. But I don’t know high-end designers and shit; that’s not my world. I dabble though. I like Louis Vuitton accessories, but I’d never wear their clothes. No offense, it’s just not my steeze.”

On launching his own line: “Never. I’m a fan of fashion; I want to be the consumer. I know it’s cliché for artists to have their own brand and shit, but that’s too much stress. No colognes, no perfumes, and if I did, it’d probably be, like, eau de Egyptian musk.”

On sneakers: “I’m into them, but I don’t collect. Hell no, I’d never sleep outside the Nike store. For some shoes?!? I like to get one pair of shoes and wear them till they’re dirty. Besides, I don’t walk—I glide, like butter. Float like a vampire. I’m like Louis Vuitton, but smoother. He wishes he were like me.”

On his HBO character: “His style is just like mine—very fly-casual, a lot of earth tones, nothing too flashy. I even wear my own jeans the whole season!”

On New York style: “Here, people’s style is expressed more through their personality than what’s in at the time. You see all different styles in New York, and that’s what made me want to stay here. I experienced more in the first six years I was here than I did the whole time I was in Cleveland. It’s cool.”

<3

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R.I.P Alexander McQueen .

if you haven't heard , british fashion designer Alexander McQueen has been found dead on Feb 11, 2010 after taking his own life . The 40-year-old committed suicide just days after the death of his mother , Joyce , last week . His death also comes just three years after his close friend , Isabella Blow - who plucked him from obscurity and helped him become a star - killed herself . McQueen , who was christened Lee but used his middle name for his label , was found at his luxury flat in Green Park , central London . & even though im not really into high fashion . im kinda sad . he was such a GREAT designer . he dressed celebs from Nicole Kidman to Kristen Stewart . i actually took the time to watch his last show & it was truly spectacular , but looking at it , it is also all the more tragic to think where he was heading , with his innovative mind . Who knows what heights he could have reached . ohhh Mcqueen . what will the fashion world do without you ?!

T_T

he's clothes were daring yet delicate & soo wierd in a way it was beautiful .

his shoes are the definition of BITCH BOOM .

remember these from the Bad Romance video ?

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even Chris Brown wore the McQueens [ the boots . )

but uhm . why is he trynna be fashionable all of a sudden ?!

& if you haven't notice im not a fan of the woman beater .

yeaaaaah he's sexy & all but . its team riri over here .

& on this blog :

EVERYBODY HATESSSSS CHRIS !

he will never beeeee . . .

Kanye West . i have a feeling this is what he's trynna be & if it is he can just give up right now . i looove kanye's style .

when he started wearing jean jackets .

so did i .

& when he put pins on the jacket .

so did i .

i idolize him more than amber actually . but damn i love them together :

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. Random .

Wale looks sooo african right here . l0l !

but loooook who got the copper foams :]

im not a sneakerhead but i like these  .

so if your a dude get these & make the other niggas jealouss .

aweee . i think its soo cute how he's infatuated with her & Beyonce .

but seriously . how many times are they going to kiss each other on the cheek ?!

& yesss i love justin beiber .

i think he's adorable .

im a teenybopper .

so the fuck whatttt .

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. get inspired .

tears will get you nothing but sypanthy .

if you're gonna cry . please do it outside .

i hope you don't taste as selfish as you look .

baby without hope . life is not worth living .

kid , you're not even old enough to know how bad life gets .

life is unfair & it will never stop being unfair . kill yourself or get over it .

you do what you love . fuck the rest .

having regrets does nothing but causes wrinkles .

well behaved girls rarely make history . just so you know .

im a mascot for what you've become . & i love the mayhem more than the love .

seduction leads to destruction .

we are all addicted to something that takes the pain away .

if you're easily offended . fuck off .

you'll never catch me . so just let me be .

he who has life let him be .

character will take you places money cant .

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. photography .

" lemme see your booooobs ! "

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i HAD to post this .

ABDC last night was tooooo good .

especially these guys .

to Taylor Swift though ?!

i found my fav. group already .

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“ From heaven to hell and back again , life is a funny thing. Beauty can come from the most strangest of places and even the most disgusting places . ”

— Alexander McQueen