i dont even know where to begin .
things have been up , down , & all around .
yet im sooo happy . i find my self smiling more & more everyday .
& i now this sounds corney as fuck , but i feel so intune with my soul .
ive been reading , writing , researching , & exploring new everything .
but dont get shit twisted . im still me . & i still like my shit BLACK .
but . . . i think its time i switched the style up . again . lol
& i know ive said i'd open up more about my personal life & havent really .
sooo this time around shit is about to get personal . reaaal fucking personal .
sooo lets get caught up shall we ?
song of the day :
Leave by VV Brown
i feel like if i was to make a up beat song . i would have done exactly this . she's a new artist on the rise . pleaseee check out more of her music .
" now you're alone in the dark with a bruised broken heart . "
soooo lately ive been working . alot . in fact too much . i feel like im always there .
but once im there i dont think about anything else but the money . i just feel like i can i freee my mind there .
its funny because i used to just sit at home & not do shit . & now im constantly running back & forth . i love it though . & not to mention the fucking weather . like where the fuckkkk did spring go ? but i cant complain . going outside just puts a smile on my face . go take a walk or read a book or a magzine outside . im telling you'll love it . other than work , ive been doing the usual . the three S's :
shopping , swearing , & smoking .
haha ! & thats what i'll be doing all summer long . i also going back to school next month . im only taking fitness & wellnes because i want to spend most of my summer working & taking trips with me friends . this summer is going to be sooo epic . every summer has a story & im not looking for a fairytale . im looking for a new york times best seller .
* but thats enough about me . TRUST ME , ill tell you guys a lot more within these up coming post .
. SPOTTED .
Katy Perry & Rihanna on the red carpet at Kids Choice Awards .
-Katy looks amazing , & that big wig she wore was sooo her , i loved it . Rihanna on the other looks like a grandma . likei know its the KCA but we allll know you would never where that anywhere else . & her performance was soo suckish . why the hell would she pick rudeboy of all songs ? i know all the little kids were like " moooommmmyyy . whats a rudeeeboyyy ?!? "
Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas . how motherfucking cutee ! when i found out they were dating i almost died . i love demi & i love joe & them together is HOT SEX . which i know they're having . i meaan wtf . all the do is PDA . they were spotted shopping & spending the day chillin in the park . i think they make a great couple . i hope they last .
Beyonce & Jay Z in the white house . what they're doing there i have noooo fucking clue . & i wonder what they're talking about . probably some illuminati shit . & why the fuck is Jay Z at the head of the table like he's the president ?! hmmm . i gotta do some research on this , i really want to know what they're doing there . updates sooooon .
RiRi on american idol . looking amazing always . & i guess this time she wasn't missing a black guitar .
she is also going to be going on tour . its called " The Last Girl On Earth " & joining her will be Ke$ha & Nicki Minaj . wierd combo but i can dig it . ill have her official tour dates soon as well . & since we're on the subject of RiRi here's what she had to say about "close" friend Matt Kemp :
“He’s my boyfriend. … It’s new and it’s fun and it’s nothing too serious. I don’t want anything nuts that’s gonna take up so much of my energy and time in a bad way.”
you cocked your head to the side & smiled didnt you ?
justtttt checking . . .
Nick Jonas for VMan magazine .
three different SEXY covers .
need i say more ?
selena & him broke up by the way . oh well , shit happens .
i dont really like selena anyway . sooo uhm . moving on ?
Ali Lohan . dont know who's she's posing for . but heyyy , lohan's spazzing out so someones gotta bring the bread home .
how long has it been since you've been inspired ?
here's a double dose . can you handle it ?
here's a double dose . can you handle it ?
. GET INSPIRED .
if i cant keep you then i give up .
how can i listen to my mind without breaking my heart ?
bottled up inside are the words i never said & the feelings that were never read .
i dont like what i becoming .
love is the ultimate performance .
do you want to sit here & die ? tell me , cause i will sit here & die with you .
my word is my pride .
you're soo beautiful that it would torment an angel to insanity .
baby i aint addicted . im committed .
your deception & lies will cost you dearly .
he's too in love with himself to be in love with anyone else .
i want to see your sould through the holes in your face .
is there still a world outside my windowsill ?
i dont care if you call me crazy , ive been called worse .
we're a pair . a perfect match . we're just ment to be .
you're too comfortable in your memories .
all my life ive been a fool .
we must do extraordinary things . we have to . it would be absurd not to .
you gave strength when i couldnt give it to myself .