say hello to the angels & demons .

woke up this morning with a tummy ache & a huge headachee . ugh , the worst combination . sooo last night me & my two friends went to LePearl . [ its a little gogo club in Maryland for those who dont know . ) & we had sooo much fun . i love it when i meet someone & we hit if off itsantly . me & her just laugh & giggle alll the time . the first time we were on the phone we talked for like two hours about anything & everything . she's just got that trusting soul . i feel like i can tell her anything & she wont judge me . we need more people like her in the world . unfortunatley she's going back to school & this is her last weekend here :[

* anywho . met a cute guy last night . he's reaaaaallllyyyyy funny . & he constantly tells me how pretty & beautiful i am . but there's two problems . im older than him . even though he looks older than mee .  & he lives in maryland . another sad facee :[ but who knowssss . things might work outt .

[ but he doesn't take my mind off from the the one that i want . . . )

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Chelsea Handler from Chelsea Lately is coming out with a new book called Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang . i think its gonna be a great book . i really need to start reading more anyway . i used to read all the time back when i was "smart" so my mother says . but ill pick back up soon enough . i fucking love chelsea though . she's like me 20 years from now . her sarcasm is motherfucking halarious . & when her & chewy go at it i almost piss myself . not to mention she's a journalist too . so i watch her show to find out the juicyyyyy secrets from the celebs . gahhh i love her mean ass :]

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In Rihanna's World .

here's her having a fun time in Cabo with Matt Kemp .

* she's tooo cutee .

* word on the street is she's not dating Matt Kemp .

Here is the EXACT quote from Matt's agent, Dave Stewart:

"I think [saying Matt and Rihanna are] dating might be a stretch at this point. They are in Cabo, but past that they are just good friends, and I don't think we can label it as anything other than friendship right now.

 

basically he's saying . don't make shit what it aint . they not together , she's just fucking him . Just because they spent a whole week in Cabo together doesn't mean they're dating .

 

*even though this looks like "dating" to mee .

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i dont care if you're black . white . asian . an alien . what the fuck ever . this is your favorite song right now . butttttttttt . did you know that she straight up STOLE her voice , style & beat from uffie ?! when i first heard her i swore up & down it was uffie . but then i found out that it wasn't . hmmmm . lets compare the twoo .

 

Ke$sha - tik tok .

*now the party dont start till i walk in :]

 

Uffie - Pop the glock .

 

 

Uffie - first love .

 

*one my favorite songs . looove this bxtch :]

 

i still love TikTok dont get me wrong . but there's only one Uffie . she thought no one would notice cause a lot of people dont know who uffie is & if she put a little beachy party flavor to it . psshhhh , CAUGHT YA BXTCH ! hehe .

 

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get inspired .

 

baby , you're due for an awakening .

we are the fuck ups , the let downs , & everything in between .

we are soo broken . non repleable . un fixable . & unbelieveable .

the worst has yet to come .

the only thing that's on my mind is how it's all going to end .

she is set to self - destruct .

scan . pin point . destroy . repeat .

* i'd kill for these shoess .

life is just a chance to grow a soul .

i woke up expecting something to happen . & what did i get . nothing .

  in my mind . nothing is simplified .

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* here's some photography . look at em . use em . make em your background . make them your screen saver . masterbate too em . i dont give a fuck . they're there for you .

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say hello to the angels & demons .
cause the way you're living . you'll get there first .
but dont hold back from life .
not now . not ever .
give it your everything . or give it nothing at all .

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how old where you when you lost your virginity??

15 .

do yu regret losing some of the friends yu lost becaus of fucked up shit yu have done?

yes . but most of them . weren't friends to begin with .

do yu think yu are fake?

i knew this question was coming . l0l , & no i dont think im fake at all . i guess i might come off that way because im polite & cordial to the people i dont like just to prove to them that they dont get to me & not to flatter themselves that i dont like them . but if i dont fuck w| you . you would DEF. know .

do yu purposley do fucked up things nd betray friends? or does it just happen nd then yu just dont care?

wow . do yall really think im THAT fucked up ?! but sometimes the shit i do is on purpose & other times its not even my fault . im always in some shit & no matter what i do or say it ends up hurting someone else's feelings . & i always care too deeply when its too late . . .

so yu said yu tend to be a really bad friend but then yu said if yu talk about your closest friendz yu will get mad. so r yu a good friend or not?

i NEVER said i was a bad friend . people fuck up , whether its on purpose or shit just happens . i am a good friend if you're a good friend to mee . well at least i try my best .

Okay, I don't want you to think I'm criticizing your answer or judging you. I guess in a sense I am, but sorry. Wouldn't you rather stop smoking when you start TRYING to have a baby. You may not find out for months and may harm the baby.

thats very truee . but smoking is a TERRIBLE habit that many people have to deal w| everyday . & ive tried to quit countless of times . & with everyone doing it around you , theres no motivation .so you're right . when im trying to have a baby or adopt my child that will DEF. motivate me to quit .

ask me anything . & i mean ANYTHING

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What's a sure fire way of pissing you off?

thats tough because a lot of shxt pisses me off . but if you REALLY wanna see me get angry , talk about my closest friends .

Do you think you find yourself trusting easily more often than not?

nopee . i dont trust anyone . sometimes not even myself . people fuck up . thats life . but when its your life thier fucking up then thats a different story .

What's the worst thing you've ever done to a friend or "friend".

ive done some pretty horrible shit to tell you the truth . soo picking out the worst would take up too much of my timee . l0l , sorrry .

Do you have a secret that you want to let everyone know, but your afraid to because you think you'll face ridicule and/or other things?

yes . . . & no . im a private person because the last thing i want is for someone to have sympathy for me . & no because FUCK PEOPLE ! if they dont like you for one thing , they'll hate you for something else .

Have you ever had an abortion or miscarriage?

im happy to say nopee & nopee :]

So, I know you smoke and drink a lot on the weekends. I was always curious as to how you got into doing that and if you felt it was "cool".

ive just always had that fast paced life style . all my friends were always older than me so i grew up thinking i could do whatever they did & it would have no affect on me . WRONG ! & i NEVER EVER thought it was cool . my friends & i were young . stupid . bad . & bored . when you grow up w| certain friends you take a little bit of thier bad habits & as i grew older i started doing it moree . but it was never to be cool .

When you say your passionate when it comes to sex, does that also mean you willing to do ANYTHING to please your sexual partner?

no one is ever willing to do ANYTHING .
but . im sureee me & the "partner" could work something outt .

When did you start smoking cigarettes and do you ever plan on stopping?

awee . look at someone who caress . l0l , & i had my first cigg at 10 i believe . horrible I KNOW ! but i didnt pick up the habit untill i was like 15 . & yess i do plan on stopping . the day i find out im pregnant or adopt my first kid .

What part of Africa is your family from?

where all the beautiful women come from of course . ghana :]

fav position?

i let him pick a new one for me each time ;]

ask me anything . & i mean ANYTHING

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i like your style. where do yu shop at ?

thankss . & about 90 pecent of my clothes come from H&M . i love that store soo much . & the other ten percent are from target & thift stores . i have mabe like 5 items from forever 21 . & i also wear A LOT of v necks from like walmart . l0l

how come you don't hang around any africans?

hmm . idk . i guess most of them dont share the same interest as me . but i hang out with people of ALL races . just like all white people dont hang out together & all black people dont hang out together .

ask me anything . & i mean ANYTHING

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ummm your one of my girl crushes, your just a bad bitch !!! lol.

awee . thanks ! ive never been someones giel crush before . i feel soo special :]

ask me anything . & i mean ANYTHING

your kind of love aint good for me .

helloo everyonee :]

i watched the movie The Lovely Bones yesterday . it was really good . it was sad yet fantasy & i like movies like that . i cried like three times . & movies that make me cry . are fucking goood ass movies . l0l ! watch it if you havent seen it yet . you'll like it . trust mee . & i must say things are going quite well .

but i have this problem  . . .  & i really dont like to talk about relationships but i like this boy . & im pretty sure he likes me too . but i cant seem to find a way to approach the situation without it being awkward . & the only reason its awkward is because he is like a best friend to mee . anddddddd he's probably going to read this & think that im fucking wierd as shxt but you know what . thats finee . its my blog & i can talk about how much i like him as much as i want soooo =p . fucker .

anywhoo .  how many of you guys have a problem with friends that are too clingy ? like they call you every 5 minutes & it just annoys the shxt out of you !? but you dont want to be mean & tell them to back the fuck up ? & im not saying this is a problem of mine . . . im just saying .

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everyone who knows me or at least knows who i am . knows that i am head over heels , would go sooo lesbo , & change places with rihanna . like i seriously do love her . & ive always had . ever since fucking pon de replay . l0l ! sooo here's the scoop : source's say that due to her album not selling she will be releasing a tell all book about life , relationships & the "incident" . but uhmmm . some are calling her superhead 2.0 . your shocked yes i know , i know . i was too at the moment . but it really does make you open your eyes to things . because we just just go off of what we see on tv & magazines . people are sooo different behind closed doors . but im praying that this isnt true . i do hope she write the book though . & alsooo . its been confirmed that she has been dating LA Dodger Matt Kemp . whoever the fuck he is . . . & they spent NYE together in Dubai . i really dont know why she's rushing into things . but who am i to judge . i do think that she is ver vunerable right now though . i just hope he dont take a bat to her head . . .WHAT ?! its a little ri-ri humor . shut the fuck upppp .

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the beautiful kid cudi was spotted wearing a kilt at a NYE party in miami . he stated that " real men wear kilts " . i think he looks fucking sexy . i mean the man can do no wrong . & somehow i have this feeling that all the cool kids will be wearing kilts with their skinny jeans .

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*i really wish i had dimples to get them pierced .

& peep the sewing machine tatt . tooo fucking sick .

soo with a new year comes new style .

get insprired by some of these looks .

i believe in miracless . just not today .

in all this chaos . i found safety .

not all who wander are lostt .

my heart doesn't belong to anyone but mee .

what am i going to do if no one falls in love with mee .

the brightest stars burn out the fastest .

who are you when no one's looking ?

my face might not always be beautiful . but my heart will always remain the same .

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BITCHBANG

i dont know weather to call these fashion items or weapons . that ring will fuck a bitch up & not even on purpose . its pretty sick though . i'd rock it . i dont know if it would stay in place though . it looks really good in pictures . but uhm . is that a mans hand ?! hmm . possibly . but like i said wear thiss & you wont have any problems getting what you want .

wow . & would you look at those . these are made by Iris Schieferstein . a german artist that works with dead animals as raw materials . & you might disagree but . i like them . i would wear these . only if i was like going to a fashion show or some type of event . & not to mention the gun as a heel . thats just the finishing touch i need to lock & load these babiess .

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you went away and left long time ago

now your knocking on my door

i hear you knocking

but you can't come in

i hear you knocking

go back to where you been

i begged you not to go but you said goodbye

now your telling me all your lies

you better get back to your used to be

cause your kind of love ain't good for me

i told you way back in '02

that I would never go with you

i hear you knocking

but you can't come in

i hear you knocking

go back to where you been

* inspired by The Lovely Bones .

* ask me or tell me anythingg .

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the last resolution .

bloggy blog blog ohh how ive missed you !

i was going to wait till my netbook came but i just couldnt keep away .

oh shxtt fuck bxtch . where are my manners ?!?

Happy New Yearrrrrrrr !

im so happy that 2009 is fucking over . but i will admit , it came with some of the BEST times of my life . but with the good times also came the bad times . but im leaving all that shxt behind me to start new beginnings in this new year :] & im leaving a couple people in 2009 as well . theres a reason why they didnt make to 2010 & for that . them bxtchessss get LEFT !

* anywhooo . my new years eve was pretty good . got pretty wasted of coursee . i must say that when you're feeling kinda down . alcohol can save your life .

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here's to my bxtchess that fucked shxt up .

saank shots down .

& got their new years kiss from a boy they didnt expect ;]

this year we will fall . fall & break necks & crack skulls .

this year we will cry for better reasons .

this year we will have longer lasting highs .

this year we will make better mistakes .

this year we will march to the beat of our own heart .

this year we will laugh great laughs & smiles great smiles .

this year we will turn tragdey into triumph .

this year we accept those who dont accept us .

this year we will not forgive . not forget . but move the fuck on .

this year we will have more challenges that will result it more victories .

this year we will put our cigarettes in the air to bless them .

this year we will relax and take notes . then burn them .

this year we will look our best . to do the worst .

this year we will be silly with our middle fingers up .

this year we will spend more time with the ones we love instead of the ones we wish to be .

*this is a fucking spitting IMAGE of me & my bestfriend on NYE .  & i have that bracelet ! it broke though . it was my favorite :[

this year we will believe the unbelieve & think the unthinkable .

*& soo is this . l0l

this year we will sit like queens because we look the part .

 [ this year we will be free motherfuckersss . )

*my NYEKISS was something like thiss . it was on some low key type shitt . & i loved it <3

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yessss i know i said resolutions are for fools but man . i cant help but keep a few under my belt . theres always room for improvement . one resolution that i have . that will never change is DONT DIE ! lmao ! you think im joking but im sooo fucking serious . i want to live to see 2011 . & my two other ones are to open up more . meaning that ill be talking about more personal shxt on here . so you guys can get to know me better & the last resolution is to worry about ME , MYSELF , & I . sometimes i feel like im caught up in everyones shxt but my own & its too heavy for me . im sick of being the one who's always giving thier opinion but its never heard . & if your sick of it too , then join with me & tell those fuckers to FUCK OFF & DEAL WITH YOUR OWN SHIT ! thank youuu & good bye bxtchess :]

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& here's where you can ask me anything . & i meaaan anything . personal . stupid . silly . tell me secrets . whooo gives a fuck . i wanna  know & i want to be asked .

http://www.formspring.me/MarleyDoll

follow me on twitter tooooo :]

www.twitter.com/MarleyDoll

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okayy so its about 3:30 in the morning and im about to watch the lovely boness . i dont know if i should be watching it soo late & by myself but ehhh . fuck it . im boredd . but i love movies like thiss , i feel like im going to hear a special quote that will change my lifee .

* thanks for reading & i PROMISEEEE YOUUU [ & i hardley ever make promise's ) my blog will get better within timee . im going to try my hardest to talk about things that people want to read & you know fancy shxt like thatt .