emancipate yourselves from mental slavery .

*[ DEEP SIGH ) . . .

i dont even know where to begin . like . things have been sooooo hetic with me , im suprised im fucking alive right now . i really dont want to go into too much detail about it because im trying to put the past behind me , but lets just say :

" they tried to make me go to rehaaaabbb & i said noo , noo , noo ! "
 ive never felt sooo betrayed & hurt in such a long timee . right when i thought i was finally coming together they broke me again into a thousand piecess .  i've been broken soo many times . & its fucking amazing that i somehow find a way to slowly put myself together . piece by piece .

*& have you ever noticed that when you cry for something unimportant , the cry doesnt last very long ? but when you are truely hurt . it seems like you've been crying for hours ? to the point where its taking your energy to cry ? to the point where you honestly think your tear supply has run outt ? well let me be the first to say that crying does NOT mean that your weak . since birth , it has always been a sign that you're alive . so when you dont cry . that's when you should fucking question yourselfff .

this post is dedicated to the way ive been feeling for the past couple of days .

WARNING : the content writen might be to dark for the human soul to baree .

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SPOTTED .

sexy ass Joe Jonas was CAUGHT leaving Hillary Duff's El Lay compound on wednesday afternoon . virgin my ass . he is too beautiful to be a virgin . i mean look at him ! & his face looks sooo guilty . l0l

Lindsay Lohan at the Warner Brothers And InStyle Golden Globe After-Party . daaamn she looks amazing :]

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you wanna know the oneeee fucking thing that pisses me off ? okay , so when someone comes up to you , or vise-versa . & they ask you : hey, how are you ? when CLEARLY your eyes are black , your mouth is dry . you look like you've just returned home from war . & you reply back : fine . . .

& then that person says : okay , thats good .

 WHY ARE WE ALWAYS SOO FUCKING FINE ?!

we are not fine . we are never finee . like seriously . how many times do you say you're fine when your not ?! why do we continue to lie on a daily basis . sooo the next time someone asks mee how the fuck im doing . i will simply reply :

how the fuck does it look like im doing ?!

& walk away .

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*PETA aint gonna like this . . .

reports say that Kanye West had been banned from appearing on the Hope for Haiti telethon premiring Friday at 8 . & although it would make some sense not to invite him , turns out Kanye was invited ! a rep for MTV is claiming the rumors of not inviting Kanye are false . Instead stating :

 " That's absolutely not true. We DID reach out to Kanye. However, Kanye has yet to respond."

smfh . typical kanye .

BUT pleaseee tune in for the telethon . i hear it supposed to be really good & all the proceeds are going to haiti . damn . i wish i would could help . . .

but here's who's going to be performing for the telethon .

*performing in New York City :

Wyclef Jean .

 Bruce Springsteen .

 Jennifer Hudson  .

 Mary J. Blige.

 Shakira .

 Sting .

& Madonna .

*performing in L.A :

 Alicia Keys .

 Christina Aguilera .

 Dave Matthews .

John Legend .

Justin Timberlake .

 Stevie Wonder .

Taylor Swift .

& a group performance by Keith Urban . Kid Rock . Sheryl Crow

& Coldplay

*performing in London :

a group performance by Bono . The Edge . Jay-Z . & Rihanna .

& Beyonce will be performing too

*sheeeeeesh . what a line up ! im going to be jumping channels with this oneee .

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get inspired .

i dont think you know what it's like . to be on the edge of your bed , head burried in your hands . just wishing it all would end .

some people are just born with tragedy in thier blood .

i know life is unfair & shit . but this is fucking rediculouss .

i wonder how life would be if i lived without feelings .

you can cry all you want but your tears wont end this war .

im content with my sadness .

im a black cloud . sending lightning to the ground .

you're one step closer to hitting rock bottom .

expect nothing . blame no one . do smething .

i feel safe in the darkness . it cradles mee .

i built up a world of magic . because my real life is tragic .

try hard & die harder .

if home is where the heart is then we're all just fucked .

dont tell me you've never had this feeling . cause we've all been here before .

real love is composed of ectasy & agony .

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photography .

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ending this off with Rihanna's performance on Oprah .

she sang Redemption song , orginally by Bob Marley .

i fucking lovee this song right here .

i grew listening to music like this soo it really touches me .

she said she uses this song to get through struggles in her life .

& so do i .

*ehh , i really dont think she should have fucked with a Marley classic . but it doesn't sound THAT bad . still love her :]

sing along if you likeee :

Old pirates, yes, they rob I;


Sold I to the merchant ships,

Minutes after they took I

From the bottomless pit.

But my hand was made strong

By the hand of the Almighty.

We forward in this generation

Triumphantly.

Won't you help to sing

This songs of freedom

'Cause all I ever have:

Redemption songs;

Redemption songs.



Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;

None but ourselves can free our minds.

Have no fear for atomic energy,

'Cause none of them can stop the time.

How long shall they kill our prophets,

While we stand aside and look? Ooh!

Some say it's just a part of it:

We've got to fullfil the book.

Won't you have to sing

This songs of freedom? -

'Cause all I ever had:

Redemption songs -

All I ever had:

Redemption songs:

These songs of freedom,

Songs of freedom.